it is snowing today and yesterday, it prob means that the parks accumulated flakes. however, i cannot go play today.
so, i will go to one park tomorrow and am going to watch a movie alone the day after tmr.
this is a plan.
a constant reminder to myself is needed. very needed. if not my mind will just wander off to the wrong stretch of road.
everything will be okay. i will have a job. and i will meet a good looking and good boy. whatever in the past were history. although i cannot erase them, i can bury them (by cz hypothesis). just put in long term memory.
maybe it is because i code the past activities too well such that i cannot forget.
in starbucks. so many people behind me, idling away. why none of them wants to stay at home for some family warmth.
staring at the grey sky.
last night was spent at some friend’s house. just a little fun. i would wish for more sparks.
More puffs today. Because I finished them all. This has got to be my favorite so far, so simple, so delicious. And I have everything I need to make them.
世界上就是有讨厌的人，不给我吃，还来叼我胃口。。。i curse you that you will be fat.
when it’s been a while since you last wrote in your little book…
JS says i have been radiating negative energy nowadays. yes, i have not been smiling that much and a job is the solution to everything. however, we had this little conversation about how people get their thoughts across. talking is one way. i always thought the people around me knows that i know what i am doing without me doing any explicit explanation. i was wrong obviously.
i used to not know the word.
Now, i understood it. but i wish that i still can pretend not to know.