the funny thing about this is that the head don’t rotate and the body did a 360 degrees.
i went to the gym coz everyone knows that you will be happy while exercising.
i daydreamed which on the treadmill, thinking about how to draw endorphins. my imaginations did not do any fancy activities. so i came up to the room and tried google images. all of the portrayals are ugly, if not strings of cells. i actually wanted to draw them if they turned out to be good looking or interesting. nah.
i use to sprinkle endorphins on the people around. i still do. just that when i am alone, i no longer activate my own eggciting hormones.
it is snowing today and yesterday, it prob means that the parks accumulated flakes. however, i cannot go play today.
so, i will go to one park tomorrow and am going to watch a movie alone the day after tmr.
this is a plan.
a constant reminder to myself is needed. very needed. if not my mind will just wander off to the wrong stretch of road.
everything will be okay. i will have a job. and i will meet a good looking and good boy. whatever in the past were history. although i cannot erase them, i can bury them (by cz hypothesis). just put in long term memory.
maybe it is because i code the past activities too well such that i cannot forget.